she screams in quiet,

Her ears are silent

She crys out all pain

Then slices her own throat

Tears end in pain

Why not bleed them away

Why even talk

When the razor can speak for you
I could pretend if you want me to
But I know I'm not okay

There's a hole

That is so empty in me

And blood makes it go away

Numbs it for a while

And when I'm there I drift away

I know no one is perfect

But I wish someone could save me
I'm so far from sanity

I can't recall my happiyness

What use to make me smile

And where'd it go

I need to slip back there

The sky is falling up above me

Hold me close

Well lie

Well dance

Pretend I don't want to die

Saying it'll all be perfect

I can't rest

With happyiness

I'm feeling like I wanna be dead

But even that takes effort

So why try?

Show me something beautiful

Show me something good

And I will in turn screw it up

I taint all I touch
That never meant to much

It's just me screaming

Me screaming quietly,

My ears are silent

As I hear nothing take the gun

And....

Bang!

©A Cristani 4-2002 nyny

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