Drug of choice:

She's all you ever ache for

And she's so far away

But just a little cut

Brings you down to her

Let me sip your insides baby

There's no fear, or pain here honey

Just a permanent lack of self esteem

And when your washed up

You'll know nothing is fine

You lived your whole life a legend

But we saw through your lie

And now I tell you what I see

My aching heart no longer beats

My blood feels like it's stopping

I have to find some friggin release

I grab the cold metal

I tremble

It's like the feeling of an old friend

The sting slowly washes over me

The cycles ending

Jobs complete

I see the droplets slowly drip down

I let go of a silent scream

I push my head back

It's so sweet to feel so much of nothing

This takes me higher then any drug

Put more alcohol on it

To feel it again

When I see the beautiful red

Everything's perfect

Just for that second

I find no misery, nothing

My scars are proof of me hurting

Cause inside is screwed

Shell should be too

I'd ask for help

But I'd only bother you

I know this is my only escape

There's nothing else that takes away my suffering

I went so long

Without doing it

Falling back into it felt so pleasant

I cannot just put it away

Now I know what drug is for me.

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